S. H. I. E. L. D. / Endgame

Slowly catching up on Agents of SHIELD and I've just finished the episode where Fitz has the mental break and Mainframe Fitz takes control.

I only say that so if you are familiar with the show, you know where I am.

Anyways.

This season of SHIELD they were transported into the future, then managed to return to their current time to fix/prevent the future from happening.  The future being that the Earth was destroyed and split apart. Rumor is that Daisy/Quake was the cause, she is the world destroyer.

Now what does this have to do with Endgame?  Well, both  Agents of SHIELD and Endgame deal with time travel as a main plot point.  AoS, the agents are sent into the future via one of the monoliths; there are three apparently.  In Endgame, Banner Hulk and Antman use the Quantum Realm to go back into time to be able to fix the future.

Here's where the hitch between the two is, in Endgame time travel is explained that the past cannot be changed, it is the past and is written.  All of the movies that deal with time travel are wrong in their premise that by changing the past, you change the future.  The butterfly effect is a lie so to speak.  Endgame isn't looking to fix the past because of this and decide to fix the present by fixing what Thanos took by stealing the infinity stones from the past bringing them into the future and reversing the snap.

Now with AoS, the plan is to stop the future by preventing the present.

I'm guessing that the way around the Endgame canon, (is it canon?) is that seeing that AoS were out of their correct time period and in the future after the world was destroyed AoS have not happened yet so they have the ability to change the future as the future has not been written yet.  AoS cannot go back to season 1 and prevent Ward from betraying them as the past is written.

I just explained this for myself by questioning everything.

You are welcome.

Lacking

I'm in a rut, creatively that is.

Seems I have so many ideas of things to do but just can't seem to get things out of my head into some sort of reality, into some sort of tangible thought beside the nebulous fog that it resides in.

Like?

Writing for one. This was a passion but now when I go to fill this space, my head goes blank as soon as I open the app to start tippy tappin' words, even though three seconds earlier I may have had words and thoughts formed fully fledged that just needed to be placed.

The fog is real.

Then there is drawing,/doodling/designing/etc. that pops into my head that, again, is fully fleshed but cannot seem to make it to reality. I try to make an earnest go to get things right but it looks like a fridge drawing that I have to Mom as a child. I try to perfect it but frustration sets in then depression in that I'm unable to get things set just right and then finally, abandonment. If I save it, usually this is done on my phone, I'll probably not come back to it at any point because those feelings come rushing back.

Building stuff, though done with the best intentions are a huge fail. Regardless if ample time was set aside for planning, designing, measuring, etc. the final product feels like crap and tends to be mended many times before it remains stable enough to not break every month.

The lack of ability to communicate ably recently has been a real crusher. Words elude me when trying to write them, say them or think of them. I feel lost without the intelligence to come back to the way.

It's a beautiful day outside and I'm weighted to this couch by this enormous nothing of indecisiveness. What to do today? Start laundry like I mentioned to my wife earlier? Do more hedge trimming and strive for that heat exhaustion/stroke in earnest? Continue the endless cycle of Facebook scrolling with the occasional flip to Reddit, then back again? Perhaps a repose between the those two of a quick game, then back?

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Greetings and salutations muchachos.

It has been awhile.
I feel I say this each and every time lately, followed by some hollow promise about blowing the dust off this place more often, which of course, I do not.  Anyways I'm here now like an absent father to his son that doesn't even know who this strange man is.

My birthday came and went without much fanfare, did have a little party at my wife's parents house, my mother made the surprise trip.  Surprise not because she (mother) doesn't want to see her only child but SURPRISE! I was not expecting her to really be there.  Anyways she got me a cool foldable bluetooth keyboard by my wife alerting her to the fact that this would be a gift I would use and appreciate; btw, it is.  For those that may be wondering, the keyboard is iclever tri-folding wireless keyboard with backlit  IC-BK05.  It is bluetooth and wifi and works with Android, windows and Apple.

Celebrated our first year anniversary of marriage with my wife; of course it was my wife, would it be with a mistress? No, because I have no need for a mistress nor no want for one either.  We did a nice steak dinner at home and ate a bite of wedding cake as per some tradition that I forced.  What can I say I like tradition, I believe they have some power.  Anyways the cake didn't taste the same as it did on the wedding day but a year in the freezer will do that to anything honestly.

Still driving truck, wanting to get my own but aforementioned wife says no so there's that.

Started a garden way late this year and did not add anything to the soil as far as fertilizer which was a mistake. Also tried starting from seed, which did not work either, except for some errant cucumber seed that found its way into my jalapeno bucket and started to grow.  It's growing better than the jalapeno that it shares the bucket with.  The other cucumbers in the garden are growing slowly, same with tomatoes. Beans are growing as well as squash plants, minus two plants that have not sprouted, I do not believe that they will.  I would stick some more seeds into those spots but I don't remember what I planted there.

Story of my life.

Anyways that should be all for now.